I'm AWFUL at this!
Remembering to post, or having something interesting TO post, is not that easy. Oh well. I've been swimming in paperwork for the last couple of weeks, selecting a new credit card processor for work. After I've worked with them a bit, I'll decide if they're getting recommendations from me or not. So far, they've been cool.
As everyone knows, Pope John Paul II passed away a little over a week ago. I've followed all the news since, and done a lot of thinking about him and the kind of man he was. I obviously don't agree with his theology in every case, and wish that the Catholic Church as a whole would move on some of its basic tenets. I think that gays should be more respected in ALL the Christian churches, though, not just the orthodoxy. They're people, too, and are entitled to make the same mistakes and receive the same forgiveness as anyone else. I also think that women in ministry is a wonderful thing, and would be a HUGE help to the church. But I don't get to vote in the Conclave, so we'll just have to see what happens.
All that said, NO ONE can argue that the Holy Father was anything but a stand-up guy, who fought for what he believed in, followed the rules he set out for everyone else, and who emanated a love that isn't seen all that often. I often joked that I'd like to be Pope one day, but I know that I'm not that kind of person. I can't surrender myself so completely to the will of G-d, even though I know that I should. I DO try, you know, it's just hard. Too hard. I'm just going to have to settle for being me.
Thursday was my 15th anniversary at work, that was a big let-down. It would surprise no one that's worked at the same place I do to find that no one remembered, much less said anything. Oh well, what's half your life, anyways? I have had some job offers and seriously considered moving away, but that's not in the cards for me right now. My friends are almost all here, my niece and nephews are here, and my best memories are here. I can't go anyplace that I don't look and say "Brad and I ate lunch there on a Wednesday" or "Ben and I got REALLY drunk, and sat under that tree". I can't give those things up right now, I need them too badly.
One day, moving on will be the right decision. That day's just not today. I think I'm gonna look for a house, and settle in with my 2 cats. I'm not always happy, but I am always "home".
-CP
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