Eventually, I won't be such a loser...

Well, crud. Every time I start this thing, I think "Maybe THIS will help!" and it usually doesn't. It's not the blog's fault, it's all me. I need to be more consistent with my blogging, so here's yet another fresh start...

519 days. That's a long time. It's not long enough to heal wounds that are really deep, though, and that's something I'm realizing more every day. I keep waking up thinkin, "Today's the day that everything will be all right!" and before lunch I realize that I'm wrong. One of these days, I'd just like to be right. I'm not sure when that will be, but I'd like to wake up one day and not be sad and frustrated and maybe a little angry. I want to wake up and not resent my upcoming birthday. I want to wake up and find that special someone.

Right now? I just wake up.

Day before yesterday, I wrote a letter to an old friend. It was a good letter, I think, but I haven't been able to mail it. It's addressed and stamped, though, so maybe tomorrow. Or maybe the day after that. I dunno.

-CP